a variety of conflicting emotions

[psocoptera]

Have bought tickets to Italy. Excited, also the nervousness I always get when buying things online (will my computer manage to submit form, or crash at critical moment?) or buying air tickets (ack! cementing of plan! am so P, for all one of you who knows what I'm talking about).

Ticket-buying punctuated by tears of frustration over apparent inability to get forms to work before I figured out that, okay, apparently you just *can't fly out of Rome on Easter*. Tears of frustration punctuated by realization that damn, I'm tired.

Also, not to trivialize it, but not to make a big deal out of it either, talked to my mom who said a friend from college had died. Friend had been fighting cancer for a long time and was at that point of needing enough pain meds to be pretty out of it, but, apparently my mom talked to her just a few days before, and. I'm not really crying for this friend, who I barely knew, but for my mom, because, how do you have your college friend on the phone call you by your old nickname and tell you she's dying. I guess you just do, and my mom is okay and all, but.

And my phone conversation with my mom was mostly Italy-centric, and mostly very happily anticipatory (she's very pro Assisi) except for wondering about anti-American sentiment or other "we will be at war" issues. I had this moment of gripping freaking-out fear in the lab this afternoon (yeah, it really seems to be an emotionally overwrought day, uck) prompted by a discussion of terrorism and travel, which annoyed me, since I don't think it was risk-proportionate, and I'm not going to miss out on an opportunity like this because of irrational fear. But, am still kinda tense about the flying part.

And letzan is in Indiana and irilyth is in SoCal, neither of which is *here*. ::pouts:: Really I just need to go to sleep and wake up refreshed and ready for a big day of inbox-cleaning, d&d summary writing, and other catching-up sorts of activities. Woo-hum. (Not quite woo-hoo, but a bit more than ho-hum...)

Kelilah: speaking of weekend plans, did you have any interest in hanging out, for possible nsync videoage or otherwise? You seem to pay more attention to lj than your email, so, now you have no excuse but your seventeen performing groups and/or general laziness/antisocialness (antisociativity?). Or being behind on lj, I suppose.

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[sofer.livejournal.com]

Italy! Woo! Oddly, I had a dream last night that I didn't go to Italy. I'd bought tickets to go with a whole bunch of people I didn't know. Then I decided that I didn't want to wander around Italy with them or by myself, so I just didn't go. You're mom recommends Assisi too. I'm afraid we might have raised you're expectations and that if you go you'll only be dissapointed. On the other hand, how often do you get to see the body of a Medieval saint?

I'm sorry to hear about you're mom's friend. I never know what to feel in a situation like that - when I don't know the person myself, but know people they know.

[psocoptera.livejournal.com]

Ah - my mom is pro-Assisi in the sense that she wants to go there, not that she's been there. She's going to be with my sib and I for the first few days since she's traveling with my sister from London to the Rhine and Venice since my sister doesn't want to travel alone.

The big question at this point is what will be open during Holy Week... the more I think about this, I think travelling to Italy during Holy Week was either the worst idea I've ever had, or will be a really amazing experience, if the stuff I really want to see is actually open.