my money's on April 1st at this point

[psocoptera]

The latest intel suggests that the meeple is quite happy where it is and is unlikely to make an appearance in the next couple of days. Although this could also be a clever ruse to get us to drop our guard. Am contemplating going nuts and making some weekend plans, on the grounds that we'd probably either end up with some weekend plans or a baby. Win-win!

I celebrated my due date yesterday (original due date? wrong due date? whatever) by getting a massage, which was *excellent*, and put a bunch of time back on my "ability to deal with the physical downsides of late pregnancy" clock. Also I officially weighed in today at close-enough-to-be-able-to-round-up-to-200 pounds, which I'm sure does not sound like anything special to people who normally weigh 200 pounds, but was satisfying to me in being a Big Round Number to go with my Big Round Body. And, I don't know, even if I'm not fast and strong any more, and am increasingly impaired and awkward with pelvic joint issues, I am feeling a certain physical power just in sheer massiveness. I may lurch along at a glacial pace but when I walk it *shakes the earth*. People talk about feeling like a beached whale in late pregnancy but I'm ponderous like a fucking brontosaur. Rarrrr. Or to bring it back to a human scale, my grandfather (who was himself heavy) used a cane and walked slowly, with a limp, and always managed to project this confidence that he was walking in perfect time and if you caught yourself going too fast, it was up to you to feel awkward about it, and I feel like I'm maybe tapping into that a little bit, that centeredness, that weightiness. I wonder whether I'll still feel any of that if I end up losing a bunch of the weight? (Of course, it may not even survive the next time I have to ask Josh to help me up from the couch...)

Comments

[rebeccapaul.livejournal.com]

I was a bit less excited about getting close to that big round number (and I am even less excited about not having far below it since then). I am impressed at how you're really embracing everything.

I hope you and the meeple come to a mutually acceptable agreement about its birthdate.

[psocoptera.livejournal.com]

Well, thank you, although I should disclaim that I think I'm more likely to post when I'm in a good mood (it helps to reinforce my positive self-talk or something). Tuesday night for instance I could not find any comfortable position for my hips and I was feeling really frustrated and helpless, but I sort of don't want to give that side of things equal time... it's not conducive to the self-brainwashing...

[motyl.livejournal.com]

*laughs*
*reads this aloud to darnok*
*laughs some more*

Ok, I've loved your pregnancy posts from day one but this confirms it: you are the awesomest pregnant woman ever :-) Or at least for the next few days.

(Rarr! *giggles*)

[psocoptera.livejournal.com]

Well, thank you very much! Some of it is very deliberate, in that it's a lot more encouraging to focus on my inner brontosaur than, say, my inner turtle-on-its-back, even though I end up feeling like the turtle at least as often, waving my little arms and legs while I try to figure out how to turn myself... it is not the happiest of turtles, alas.

[belecrivain.livejournal.com]

Being a brontosaur sounds pretty damn awesome. I've been feeling more whale-y myself, though we did find a decent dress for me to wear to a wedding in two weeks.

My kid, though -- she ain't shaking the earth, but she's shaking the belly. It's pretty funny when I'm reading a book (okay, Your Baby and Child) propped against the belly, and the book jumps in my hand.

[psocoptera.livejournal.com]

Hee hee, that's awesome. The meeple got my arm right on my watch once, where I had left it resting against me, causing me to make a rather surprised noise as my arm was jolted away... usually it's not quite *that* sharp and sudden.

Yay dress for a wedding! That's a good find. I've actually worn dresses quite a bit as maternity clothes, since they get around the whole difficult "how are your pants staying up" question - I made some great finds at Goodwill, things that were not necessarily maternity but had room for the belly.

[bhadrika.livejournal.com]

Thanks for giving us such a wonderful vicarious pregnancy to enjoy. I'm all for the win-win solution of making plans. Plus, if you make plans with other people, you can give them a thrilling "could it be..." just by being late....

I think you're definitely going to win the baby-vs-blanket race, since I just had to undo about 2/3 of what I'd done because it was turning out funny. I assume you're not doing that, so now you're WAY ahead of me....

[sofer.livejournal.com]

"I'm ponderous like a fucking brontosaur. Rarrrr"

Hee hee! I hope you don't have to wait too much longer.