invisible holes

October 15th is National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. I don't know this for any immediate personal reason, and it seems entirely inadequate to say I wish nobody else did either. I don't think I even know where all the absences are, where babies should be, and yet I have the sense that they're there. I have a tiny little mind that does not hold onto anything for very long including major details of the lives of people I care about and so the idea of me successfully observing any kind of Remembrance Day is sort of pathetic but I would feel honored to get to hear anyone else's memories and see the outlines of those invisible holes.

( in which I self-centeredly ponder Bad Things That Can Happen )