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whack-ass dream
Jun. 2nd, 2003 07:46 pmSo right before I got up this morning I had this gripping dream that I could not stop thinking about for the rest of the day.
It was the seventh grade, and I was twelve again. With all of my subsequent memories intact. (Clever readers, meaning carpenter, will notice that this owes a lot to that book, whatsitcalled. And in fact it looked nothing like my junior high, all the people were different, etc, I just knew in that dream way that This Was What Had Happened.)
But, god, what would I *do*? If I were back in my twelve-year-old body again, in my twelve-year-old life? The answer in my dream seemed to be "take PE seriously since god knows it's the only subject I'd actually be learning something in and use my unexpected maturity to manipulate the adults around me", but, dude. I think the answer would have to be "get heavily involved in the BBS scene as where else could I have a reasonable conversation", "start going to the uni library to read the journals so at least I'd be amazingly up on my field when I was finally an adult again", and "attempt to constantly confound my parents by my maturity in hopes they'd start playing along". But, I mean, would I try to live my life the same way again? Get into Swat, finally meet up with all my friends again? My god, I'd have to sit my IB exams again, it just doesn't bear thinking about. I don't have too many adult vices, so no long wait for the drinking age or anything, but, it poses the question, would adolescence actually be *less* bearable from the perspective of an adult?
It was the seventh grade, and I was twelve again. With all of my subsequent memories intact. (Clever readers, meaning carpenter, will notice that this owes a lot to that book, whatsitcalled. And in fact it looked nothing like my junior high, all the people were different, etc, I just knew in that dream way that This Was What Had Happened.)
But, god, what would I *do*? If I were back in my twelve-year-old body again, in my twelve-year-old life? The answer in my dream seemed to be "take PE seriously since god knows it's the only subject I'd actually be learning something in and use my unexpected maturity to manipulate the adults around me", but, dude. I think the answer would have to be "get heavily involved in the BBS scene as where else could I have a reasonable conversation", "start going to the uni library to read the journals so at least I'd be amazingly up on my field when I was finally an adult again", and "attempt to constantly confound my parents by my maturity in hopes they'd start playing along". But, I mean, would I try to live my life the same way again? Get into Swat, finally meet up with all my friends again? My god, I'd have to sit my IB exams again, it just doesn't bear thinking about. I don't have too many adult vices, so no long wait for the drinking age or anything, but, it poses the question, would adolescence actually be *less* bearable from the perspective of an adult?
